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Sun, 24 Dec 2006 15:54:36 GMT

yo people juz came back from adventure camp! i dunno how many people actually read this blog.. but well.. let me juz say wat i wanna say.. first of all! adventure camp! adventure with wat? with the Holy Spirit! well.. it is my first time joining xyz camp.. yea.. and thus, got to know so many many of u guys! even though i forgot ur names.. sigh* wahaha... i recognize ppl throught their faces but not names.. wahhaa.. and dun ask me if one day everyone lost their faces... blar.. well i got to know like... at least ten people la.. and u guys know who u are la.. and bsides that.. in the angels and mortals game! wahhaa! tell u wat! i didnt expect to get my mortal as a guy named jeremy wee who is from my cg as well... kekeke... and sadly, all the stuf i prepared was like.. for gurls.. and so... gues wat? i named other five gurls as my mortals.. wahhaa! mainly charmaine,weien, eunicepeh, lianne, kaylee... didnt really give them a lot of stuf though.. but jeremy at least i gave him a book, a lolipop, a tube of sweets, and wat else... haha? empty*.. greatz... guess that he is gona whack me soon.. wahhaa.. and now, introducing my group! happy house hospital! nice name yea! credits to leroy* wahaha! such a creative name.. and guess wat.. we emerged as the overall second best team! u guys are great! talent time was superb tell u that! i love my play and same as everyone else! even though some groups were like super borin.. wahhaa.. well.. anyways! im not going to type so long this time... so gonna end here la~ well take care then! ciaoz.. to anyone outhere.. merry christmas...

180°

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 15:40:20 GMT

Oh yes oh yes, now! Don’t think that this is a math quiz or what. Look at the numbers hanging up there, what strikes into your mind? Three digits and a flying dot by the side? Or rather you will say, ‘ separuh bulat la! ‘, and yea, that proves that you need math tuition, muahaha! Well, let me be straight, it is a U turn and of course, you are suppose to feel lost now and wondering what on earth am I talking about. Ok guys and gurls! It is simulation time! Listen this, our lives are just like ‘life-cars’ in the highway, some of us have a driver but some we don’t. Still feeling obscure? Good then! Continue reading on!

It is all about memories and how wonderfully my life has changed upside down. This story of mine is just never ending and remarkable because I’m talking about my true self now, about my past experience, about how I climb ahead of all the troubles, and about how I trusted God. Before I start my story telling time, I shall code to you a verse, Psalms 55:22 “ Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you.” And don’t see any verses as a line of word, but it can be a meaning of life for eternity like mine today only if you mean it by your heart.

Well, I have so much to share about my life changing experience but allow me to flashback to five years ago, the moment where I was still innocent yet cute! :p..

That time I was still an atheist even though I attended Sunday school as usual but due to my ignorant brainy, I was still not mutual enough to give a care about anything I heard or learned and the only thing I learned is about Noah’s ark... wondering why? Because there was where I knew about animals... wahaha! X) And yea, when it came to the time for me to enter into SMKDJ, my secondary school, I still blaspheme about God in disrespectful way, things like ‘go die la!’, ‘oh my God!’ and sort of... but I never knew the meaning behind it and had fun saying it as loud as possible. But remember, I was still form one then and had this fuzzy and nerdy look! Well, as soon as I entered into this school, some sort of feeling just got my attention to join CF and I was doubt about it. But until Wei Chin (our ex ex president) came to my classroom and began to promote about joining CF, that is where I set my decision and went for it.

My life at that time was just like a superb Ferrari which is well polished and everything was just great. But sooner, my engine began to have defects and black smokes can be seen all around. Now what I mean here is that temptation, frustrations, worries, jealousy, and all others anti Christian behavior began to overwhelm my life. I had splendid of annoying problems and was in always in a quandary to take the next step. I was still a blurry youth that time, letting the bygone be bygone. But every time when I faced up with a dilemma, I had no courage to take on any risk. I had no purpose of living. It is just like a car without driver, in the middle of the highway and heading nowhere and ignoring the signboards.

That journey without meaning of living lasted for about two years. Many things came so unpredictable and my life was easily influenced. I didn’t have a pillar of strength or hope to grab on. At the end of the period, my ‘car’ was defiled by so many things, also meaning, my personalities were vulnerable to all the temptations out there.

I even got so jealous of everything and began to envy about stationeries and so that was when the first big sin I committed. Believe it or not? I was so good at stealing and got unspotted for almost 7 trips of stealing. And the worst thing I had ever done is also selling all those stationeries to my friends, at super cheap rate! cheaper than any place you can find! Let’s say.. er.. G-tec for RM2? But well of course, the bad one will be punished and the good one will be rewarded! My mom eventually found out of my evil doings, just because I didn’t manage to cover up for my secretive doings. And guess what? I broke into tears and for the first time, I felt the regret of committing sin and as if a heavy stone was chained to my legs. My mom was ashamed to talk me and embarrassed of my doings, but then she didn’t just walk away in sorrow ; instead, she stated to me this wonderful verse, 2 chronicles 7:14 ‘ if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sins and will heal their land.’

That was the exact moment I began to question myself, ‘God, are you there right up in the heaven? Watching what I have done? ‘ Fear starting to rain down on me when this question myself this over ten times and from that onwards, I was so hunger to know more about his presence and his kingdom. It was my third year in secondary school then, and of course, I went to CF camp again! Woohoo! And that was one of the thriving moments of my spiritual life again! A second generation of Christian was borne! It was a night of confessions of sins to our only one God and Savior.

All before this my ‘car’ was all along heading into a popular road which is filled with fames, bad habits, wickedness; but it was God who gave me a U turn! Yea! A U turn to an eternity life that is filled with hope! Joy! And freedom that you will never ever get from anywhere. And there are so many things to mention but you got to experience it for yourself! He, the Holy God, has set an escape road for me! Has sent His angels to guide me in my every thoughts, movement, and words. Meantime, He polished my car and even repairs every single damage of it. My sins were forgiven! I have found my purpose! I have armored myself with the belt of truth, the breastplate of righteous, the shield of faith, the helmet of salvation and the sword of the spirit! (Ephesians 6) and the most important thing, I have found the purpose of life, the purpose that gives me the hope to continue my spiritual life.

And of course, it was not camp alone that gave me this chance to know more about Him, but this camp gave me chance to have even more chance! Why? Somehow, after this camp, I even want to know even even more! Yea! And from this onwards I began to join XYZ, Xtraordinary Youth Zone, and this is just simply awesome! I began to learn marvelous things about being Christ like and began to serve Him more from there. I thank God for placing me in such a beautiful place somehow, it is where I got to fellowship and got help from! I just got so excited of joining into such an amazing place.

Well, look guys, that is how God has changed my life! And of course, I wasn’t telling 100% due to limited space to write this life journal of mine. But tell you what now! My life is still filled with temptations now! Everyone has them because Satan is trying to control us by giving us sins! But sin only comes when you lust for the temptation! And it is in Christ, our pillar of strength, we got to control our lust and sins are from away from us then! I have so many problems right now too, such as family problem, financial problem and the list just go never ending but the thing is I am not worry about it, For God will provide to me anything that is according to His will! (Luke 1: 50-54). And I am not only hungry to know more about Him, but I am hungry to know more and more people, and tell the world that He is alive! That He is the forgiver of sins! That He is the Hope and the light!

Well people, tell you what.. It is still the road less taken leads us to sweet surrender. You will only experience how great it is only if you have gone through it, and the truth is the experience will last forever, because He is carrying us all along.

Credits to the newsletter department who gave me this wonderful opportunity to share my memories and my experience. If you have any questions to ask me regarding about my spiritual walk or just a chit chat, please add me at special_starz_371@hotmail.com. ‘let us return to the LORD, for he has torn, and he will heal us.’ Hosea said it… anyways.. Take care people! Let us shake the planet yea! Let us be a glowing light in the dark! Let us worship Him, the creator of universe, forever and till the eternity!

Agape,

Your humble servant of Christ,

Gene-Harn,

Respect!

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 08:24:07 GMT

Yo people! yesterday before i slept, some things just flew across my mind.. thinking about all the frenz i have.. and even some friends which i don't know their name.. or perhaps they are not my frenz too.. boo! wateverz la! anyways.. now i feel like saying something about respect.. and people who earned my respect.. gonna mention them! but not to pikat them or get their attention la! juz that i really respect them and if your name is not inside here.. then ask me why la! haha.. and if your name is inside here and you think like as if i don't know you.. then ask me why also la.. anyways.. here it goes.. guys that i respect... yong meng, meng leong, japtheth chew, Ben ji, Ming Ern, and lotz and lotz more.. about gurls, i would say Ruth Cheng , Wei En, Wei Chin, Anna Chieng, Wen Ann, Melissa Fong.. these is all the names so far i remember la.. forgive me if your name is not in, i will think twice and put in kua.. lol.. and there's sure some people whom you don't know.. so don't spam my cbox asking me who they are.. lol.. ciaoz... respect! and i respect myself cause i respect My God too... take care...

Time flies...

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 06:20:27 GMT

Greatz... many of us always want holidays to come faster and faster but when it is already there.. gues wat? totally wasted... bler... it is like before my final term examz, i'm like ok ok.. im goin to do push up 100 times a day and goin to jog for 10 rounds a day and gonna study bk and blablabla.. and gues wat.. of course.. it didnt work out.. all i did was juz hibernate in my lovely bed... wahaha... but wat did i archive? na.. nothin at all.. so novembr juz flied away.. and leaving a space of empty memories in my mind.. besides a singapore trip recently.. and a borin one.. cause it was a std 6 trip.. and was my mom's school trip as well.. so since i was so bored that time.. and to kill my time too.. i juz follow la! i went durin my form 2 too.. with the std 6 againz.. and i got to know so many ppl.. well.. it was two years old difference onli.. but now.. wa... 4 years.. so it is obviously that they dun wanna talk to me.. wahaha.. so i guess i got to know some guys.. but not the gurls.. last two years one i knew so so many.. and so mad that time.. they even asked my emailadd and hp number.. i was like.. jaws drop* anyways.. the recent trip was surprisingly boring, so i skip one day trip to shopping.. and there is one word to describe singapore.. shopping heaven.. wahaha.. juz look at Orchard Road... one road has 20 over shopping malls.. amazing? yea.. and all i bought is juz a pair of nike shoes and long pants.. and the chinatown there rock too.. anyways.. that is actually something major event durin november for myself.. now is december edi.. so i guess im gonna start.. planing everything.. but not studying duh.. not worth at all.. but if studying bk.. then yes.. and plenty more activities comin in.. XYZ camp, chrismast party.. and many many things.. moving into my new apartment.. afraid if i study no time also.. well.. i have not been taking any tuition for form 4.. so i will giv it a try cause kinda afraid for next year.. and kinda tight budget for tuition too.. so no choice la! take chem, bi and bc tuition lor! and activities killin my throat once again.. the last week of december gonna be super busy cause need to decorate 4 boards of my school as i am incharge of themm.. anyways... and i think i forgot something.. erm.. something meaningful yet memorable.. oh yea! cf newsletter.. im gonna write my memories into it.. the editor was asking me to write an article about how God changed my life through Cf.. infact He not only was, but He is. anyways... chup! time's out! and to u all people outhere! hugz! thanks for reading my blog.. and tell me la if u are reading! juz leave a message or watz la... ciaoz k ppl! God bless..

More About Myself...

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 12:33:53 GMT

well.. it seems that very few people came to visit my blog.. bad or gud huh? good as well.. now i can say anythin that is perasan that will make myself satisfied with my day.. ahaha! well.. to be straight forward.. i feel that im really different.. and i dunno whether it is a good o bad.. i often think about the way i live and the achievements that i have done.. not to boast but im really confident in everything i do.. cause i got a great father beside me. and im prepared to face any challenges ahead, no matter travelling the planets or going to a war..

and about my life, my school life, i didnt expect myself to be like top 10 smartest people in the school or wat.. i didnt expect myself to be the fastest runner in school or wat, i didnt expect myself to be the best musician or wat.. i didnt expect myself to be that religious or have super faith in God..i didnt expect myself to be a very active student in school events and clubs.. but everything's changed! not really a big changed.. im not expert in everything i mentioned above, but i feel that im balanced.. right in the middle..

im proud to be in 4 angsana, a pure science class.. but got middle position.. and im not too gud or too bad either.. and besides that, i feel that im becoming more and more towards a sportsman.. infact, im trying to focus on develpoing sportsmanship which u guys know wat it means.. and i started it long events at first.. but next year gonna into 400m if meng leong allows..

and further more, im really proud that i learned my guitar by myself, and all thanks to ben teo and paul tan, they were the leaders of smkdjcf.. and from here, that is where i really pick up my guitar and learn.. they thaught me the basics like the 4 main chords.. but all i did after that, like 3 months, i bought a book and started exploring it by myself.. i mean.. im really glad that God introduce me to the world of music, and there's so often i use the talent that he gave me to lead the crowd worship him.. and im really proud that my guitar skills are standard edi cause i dun think any classes.. and all thanks to cfsmkdj people.. u guys really traded skills wit me a lot.. and now im into writing songs.. infact im preparing to do performances at last in school ...

and in school many people say that im very active and crazy about my cocuriculum events.. well.. i dun think so seriously.. juz holding some few post like two presidents and 4 more other posts doesnt mean im great or wat.. but i agree that that's where i learn about responsibility and leadership.. and many more that im really glad to have it now.. infact i really hoping to see everyone being active in school events.. they muz experience this joy of handling jobs! schoollife is not about studying onli! it is about having fun in wateverz u do! im willing ot put more time on koku activities then tuitions.. cause i know that tuition can be a waste of time too.. and mostly people fall on that..

well.. one more thing.. im glad that God gave me the chance to know Him.. and even more now! and to tell u the truth.. all this four things above are really God's grace.. if i dun join cf, i dun think i have them either.. all the motivations came from the leaders of cf.. and right now.. im gonna return them to the younger generations! and God is a part of CF, and God is a part of me.. so CF is a part of me! and of course, i will still continue to gain my effort to the extra mile for those things..Bible says.. for those who has more will be given more..

And im not blaming God for putting me in a broken family, infact im really glad that he has guide me in this horrible situation.. i learned so many things and i am still learning.. such like being the man of the house, and handling money thingy.. and more independent.. hopefully it can prepare myself to be a father in the future.. there's so many things to say about this.. cant say it all at once though.. it is all about memories.. and from memories, u gained experiences and lessons.. and that's where the real me! born out.. lol.. guess have no more thing in my mind.. and one more last thing.. i really like to share memories wit each other.. aaha.. so reachout to me if u got anythin wanna say.. GOd bless.. i had fun writing this.. ciaoz..

Holidayz la..

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 13:43:02 GMT

i wanna more people to visit my blog! so so so sian.. haha.. holidays juz started.. well.. and i know it will end very fast too.. and currently no planing on studies yet until the end of november.. im not a nerd! im juz worrying for spm which is a good thing and bad thing.. well.. and im not someone who studies but prefer kokurikulum more than tuitions.. u wanna know y then ask me why.. haha! im not a power seeker or wat.. but i find that joining many activities and incharge of so many events in school are fun.. and i juz dun get it why so many people outhere dunno how to appreciate this job! greatz.. and the rewards are later la.. u will know how much it helps.. the truth is that joining so many kokurikulum can really build up your leadership and get you great frenz.. i find it the more i join the more frenz i get.. haha.. oh greatz.. i wasnt plan to talk about this.. and i know im always too into that topic.. ouch* forgive me.. and so im juz bugging here for killing time.. and thanks for reading this 'interesting' article! take care! ciaoz..

Friday, November 17, 2006

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 12:46:29 GMT

Mighty To Save..

Everyone needs compassion,

Love that is never failing, Let mercy fall on me,

Everyone needs forgiveness,

The kindness of a saviour, The hope of nation,

Saviour, he can move the mountains!

My God , He is mighty to save.

He is mighty to save,

Forever, author of salvation,

He rose and conquer the grave,

Jesus conquered te grave!

Shine your light and let the whole world see,

that we are singing,

for the glory of the risen king! Jesus!

by:Hillsong MIghty To save..

BoyGurlRelationShip..

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 16:49:02 GMT

Well.. recently.. i got so many stories from my friends about their past love stories.. well.. very own luv stories.. but in other hand.. got plenty to summarize so im gonna do it here.. i dun usually do this until this gurl came and told me about so many many things that took over her heart for few years.. ouch.. or is God trying to tell me that i should put this on.. well.. to satisfy my day, i shall say a few words regarding to the above situation.. haha.. situation pulak.. find.. tragedy.. lol! well.. myself i have been through so many bgr.. and im not ashame to say about it but im not proud of it.. because the more bgr u go through in your school life, the more memories u get, the more hurts u get.. dun believe it? try it out.. haha.. better noe! hm.. it is basically.. let me tell u.. it is infatuation.. first sight love in other words.. we dun have enough time to spend on our love life boys and galz! it is ok to get crushes from anywhere and anytime, it is the matter how u manage it! and constantly pray to God that u will not do anything that is not according to His will and that u wont fall into temptation.. the truth is... many people.. i mean youngsters.. no matter how religious they are.. even some of them can juz fall down by a little, tiny crush.. the matter to win over this head to head situation is fast and prayer and being humble.. well... it is like so late now.. cant write much.. but i do like to hear your stories and memories.. im a guy that shares memories! get it? fine! ahaha.. special_starz_371@hotmail.com.. add me in msn.. see ya there..

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 08:19:47 GMT

Quitely Seeking GOd... Awesome Heavenly Father..

Father to the fatherless, Defender of widows - this is God, whose dwelling is holy. God places the lonely in families..." (Psalm 68: 5-6, NLT)

We often don't appreciate what we have until we have lost it. When we get a B or C in examz.., for instance, we quickly realize that we are not satisfied with the reesults , even though we weren't particularly grateful when we had it. The same thing happened to me when I lost my father. However, for me, it was a slow realization. Over many years, I came to understand how much my father meant to me and how much it means to have lost him. With him, I was secure, embraced and blessed. Without him, I felt uncertain, rejected and somehow inferior to others.

Many describe the world in which we live as a 'fatherless society'. The reason for this is not just the breakdown of the family unit but also an overall rejection of God, the Father.

As a result, like me, much of our society feels uncertain of the future, unloved and insignificant. However, I genuinely believe that many Malaysians are coming to realize what they have lost and are looking for answers. I discovered my confidence, acceptance and significance when I had a life-changing revelation that God was my Father. This is the solution for which our society is searching. And it is a solution with which each one of us in the church can be actively involved. However, if we as a church can foster a 'fatherly environment' of safety, warmth and favour, I believe thousands will come and regain the home they have lost.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 08:17:57 GMT

* Dealing with negativity..

A great percentage of people are unaware of the impact that negativity has on their lives but it can literally sabotage their destiny and rob them of a fulfilling, abundant life. Negativity has the power to hold you down well below your potential, and cause you to miss out on God's plan for your life. The following passage is what i have copied from www.http://www2.hillsong.com/brianbobbie/default.asp?pid=669 and i feel many people need to read this.. no matter christians or non christians.. it DOES aaplies in your life!

Negativity always reflects inner defeat.

Jesus said, 'For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.' (Matthew 12:34 NKJV). You can easily tell the content of a person's heart by listening to the words they speak. In your day-to-day life do you ever listen to yourself speak? Do you notice the anxiety you express or the hopelessness you confess? This shows up in even the simplest comments. Negativity will reflect inner defeat. It often lashes out at circumstances, people, the environment or the government. It may cast blame on a father, mother, leader, boss or spouse. I believe that in every circumstance negativity is not about any of these things. It is about the individual and what's going on inside.

Negativity always justifies itself.

'All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the spirits.' (Proverbs 16:2 NKJV) We can generally justify the way we think and act. There are usually good reasons for us to feel hurt or perhaps victimised, but justifying won't change anything. It simply gives us a reason to accept mediocrity or failure. Negativity attempts to justify its stance by quoting experience. Religion sometimes justifies itself through tradition and experience. However we must stand firm in our determination to succeed, because the moment we begin to justify ourselves we'll cut off opportunities to change and grow. Negative people draw on negative experiences and build their beliefs and opinions around them. Then they justify their position because of what happened to them. Positive people are more likely to change themselves to line up with their potential. Negativity chooses your friends for you 'He who walks with wise men will be wise, but the companion of fools will be destroyed.' (Proverbs 13:20 NKJV) We need to be very careful who we spend our time with, and who we allow to give us advice. Are they people who are moving onward and upward, or are they wallowing in negativity, self-pity and mediocrity, going nowhere fast? Are their words inspiring you to become the person you were intended to be, or are they deflating and distracting you? Whatever direction your friends are heading in, will have a major influence on your future ... if you allow it. A person determined to overcome negativity and fulfil their destiny cannot afford to be held back by leadweight relationships.

Negativity magnifies and distorts the truth.

Anxiety in the heart of man causes depression, but a good word makes it glad. (Prov 12:25 NKJV) Anxiety is built on what MIGHT happen. It affects every area of your life, and thrives on 'What ifs ...?' What if I get sick? What if I lose my job? What if my children have an accident? Negativity and anxiety work closely together. An anxious or depressed person cannot see straight. Their perspective on life is blown out of all proportion. Small things seem huge, molehills turn into unbeatable mountains. If you are looking at the world from a heart full of cynicism and bitterness, your perspective of the truth more than likely, will become magnified and distorted in a destructive way.

Negativity makes sweeping statements and harsh judgments.

When King David began to dance with joy and happiness in the midst of a great crowd, his wife Michal watched with disdain. Embarrassment fuelled her caustic and sarcastic retort. "How inglorious was the King of Israel today." Was David's dancing the real issue? Or was it the negative condition of Michal's heart that prompted her to make such harsh judgments? It is easy to watch people from a distance and make sweeping judgments about them. Sadly, the need to criticize or pull down comes from a negative condition within. Negativity will rob you of the great future God intends for you, so challenge the negativity in your life. You can begin to change things by building a good foundation and living by God's Word